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this is gonna be the first time I dont get to see Taylor in concert and it’s because i was so far back in the queue I’m so sadddddd

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Taylor Swift Turns People Gay: A Coming Out Story

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So this is a hard letter to write. As I’m sitting in this Detroit airport, following @taylorswift’s Omaha show last night, I feel like someone out of a Nora Ephron movie, about to send a huge declarative email to an old love that explains everything and begs for them back - fingers sweaty and trembling between the send button and the cappuccino next to me. That may be a bit dramatic, but I’ve always relished a bit of juicy drama (haven’t you?) and this letter really is a declaration of love at its heart, though somewhat selfishly, it focuses on love for myself. Last spring, about six months ago - a few months before turning 21 - I decided to (finally) come out as gay. You, as an adamant Taylor Swift fan, might be thinking, “Okay, who cares?” And I could understand that, but as today is National Coming Out Day, I figured I’d add my story to the growing pile, and thankfully so, of people with similar stories to tell. But, though probably not surprising as I’m keeping a low profile in an official 1989 baseball cap, my Taylor Nation photo lighting up on my phone with each spam email received, my story has a lot to do with Ms. Swift.

I grew up with her, have been a fan since Teardrops (I wasn’t exposed to the YouTube singles until later, I’m sorry I’m terrible!), cried over All Too Well, and danced around in a homemade Junior Jewels tee. However, with the release of 1989 and the reincarnation of Taylor as a pop princess with all the fun of Britney, power of Beyoncé, and artistry of Gaga, I found myself getting in touch with who I really was - which terrified me. A piece of myself that I always condemned and pushed down, trained to fear from bullies growing up that made me feel like I didn’t deserve their happiness, began to gnaw at me more than ever. I would go further into those years but this is my story, and I’m done letting bullies control my life’s narrative. So here I was, alone and broken after years of self hate, when I downloaded 1989 when it was released on iTunes and my life changed.

You might think I’m leading towards a big revelation about the “boys and boys, and girls and girls” line of Welcome to New York - a great line for sure and one that I now scream as loud as possible at concerts or in my car - but really it was another lyric that consumed me and bounced around my head until it wouldn’t stop. “The best people in life are free.” That one little line from New Romantics would not leave me alone, no matter how hard I tried. “The best people in life are free.” I used to sing it and dream that one day I could be free too, that one day I could sing that line without feeling like a cheat or a fraud to the people I would avoid or lie to through omission.

So finally, this past Easter, I did something terrifying that completely leveled me. As I was in the car with my family, driving home after a nice mini-vacation, I told them I was gay. I was actually waiting for a sign, as any superstitious child of the Harry Potter generation would, and when three (yes three) Taylor songs came on the radio within an hour I finally said, “Jesus christ Taylor I’ll do it, leave me alone.” And I did it. It destroyed me, I felt weird, it was strange. But I was free. Finally. After years of bottling it up, of pretending I was fearless, pretending I would speak now, I did it. And I haven’t been happier. It was the most important moment of my life and so many of my friends supported me and allowed me to grow more these past six months than the rest of my life combined.

I owe that to Taylor. She made me want to be free. And while many might see this as a shameful attempt for recognition (I mean, I would never turn down a Loft 89 invite, I’m not insane), I wanted to write this letter for two reasons. One: to thank Taylor, who built up courage within me since 2006 for a moment that was about 10 years in the making; and two: for any boy out there who pretends to dance to Shake it Off ironically but really wishes they could be free of stigma and do it wholeheartedly; or for anyone, boy and girl and anyone in between, who sits in their room listening to Our Song and wondering if they’ll ever have the opportunity to love someone like that. You will. I know it. So thank you Taylor, for holding my hand in those scary, dark times even though you might never know it, and for anyone out there still struggling…it’s okay to dance in secret, just know we’ll be here for you, cheering and screaming like we would at any Taylor swift concert, when you’re finally ready to be free. Thanks Taylor, and thanks anyone who read this until the end. See you in the next era. xxoo

@taylorswift my friend wrote this after he saw you at the 1989 tour. I know it would mean so much to him if you were to see it now!

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What if I’m all right, right, right, right here? 💗💘💕💓💜

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Who could ever leave me darling? But who could stay?

… You could stay 💕

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Finally found someone who respects me and loves me and will listen to @taylorswift with me 💕😭🙌🏼💘

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Taylor Swift Turns People Gay: A Coming Out Story

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understatedfun:

So this is a hard letter to write. As I’m sitting in this Detroit airport, following @taylorswift’s Omaha show last night, I feel like someone out of a Nora Ephron movie, about to send a huge declarative email to an old love that explains everything and begs for them back - fingers sweaty and trembling between the send button and the cappuccino next to me. That may be a bit dramatic, but I’ve always relished a bit of juicy drama (haven’t you?) and this letter really is a declaration of love at its heart, though somewhat selfishly, it focuses on love for myself. Last spring, about six months ago - a few months before turning 21 - I decided to (finally) come out as gay. You, as an adamant Taylor Swift fan, might be thinking, “Okay, who cares?” And I could understand that, but as today is National Coming Out Day, I figured I’d add my story to the growing pile, and thankfully so, of people with similar stories to tell. But, though probably not surprising as I’m keeping a low profile in an official 1989 baseball cap, my Taylor Nation photo lighting up on my phone with each spam email received, my story has a lot to do with Ms. Swift.

I grew up with her, have been a fan since Teardrops (I wasn’t exposed to the YouTube singles until later, I’m sorry I’m terrible!), cried over All Too Well, and danced around in a homemade Junior Jewels tee. However, with the release of 1989 and the reincarnation of Taylor as a pop princess with all the fun of Britney, power of Beyoncé, and artistry of Gaga, I found myself getting in touch with who I really was - which terrified me. A piece of myself that I always condemned and pushed down, trained to fear from bullies growing up that made me feel like I didn’t deserve their happiness, began to gnaw at me more than ever. I would go further into those years but this is my story, and I’m done letting bullies control my life’s narrative. So here I was, alone and broken after years of self hate, when I downloaded 1989 when it was released on iTunes and my life changed.

You might think I’m leading towards a big revelation about the “boys and boys, and girls and girls” line of Welcome to New York - a great line for sure and one that I now scream as loud as possible at concerts or in my car - but really it was another lyric that consumed me and bounced around my head until it wouldn’t stop. “The best people in life are free.” That one little line from New Romantics would not leave me alone, no matter how hard I tried. “The best people in life are free.” I used to sing it and dream that one day I could be free too, that one day I could sing that line without feeling like a cheat or a fraud to the people I would avoid or lie to through omission.

So finally, this past Easter, I did something terrifying that completely leveled me. As I was in the car with my family, driving home after a nice mini-vacation, I told them I was gay. I was actually waiting for a sign, as any superstitious child of the Harry Potter generation would, and when three (yes three) Taylor songs came on the radio within an hour I finally said, “Jesus christ Taylor I’ll do it, leave me alone.” And I did it. It destroyed me, I felt weird, it was strange. But I was free. Finally. After years of bottling it up, of pretending I was fearless, pretending I would speak now, I did it. And I haven’t been happier. It was the most important moment of my life and so many of my friends supported me and allowed me to grow more these past six months than the rest of my life combined.

I owe that to Taylor. She made me want to be free. And while many might see this as a shameful attempt for recognition (I mean, I would never turn down a Loft 89 invite, I’m not insane), I wanted to write this letter for two reasons. One: to thank Taylor, who built up courage within me since 2006 for a moment that was about 10 years in the making; and two: for any boy out there who pretends to dance to Shake it Off ironically but really wishes they could be free of stigma and do it wholeheartedly; or for anyone, boy and girl and anyone in between, who sits in their room listening to Our Song and wondering if they’ll ever have the opportunity to love someone like that. You will. I know it. So thank you Taylor, for holding my hand in those scary, dark times even though you might never know it, and for anyone out there still struggling…it’s okay to dance in secret, just know we’ll be here for you, cheering and screaming like we would at any Taylor swift concert, when you’re finally ready to be free. Thanks Taylor, and thanks anyone who read this until the end. See you in the next era. xxoo

@taylorswift my friend wrote this after he saw you at the 1989 tour. I know it would mean so much to him if you were to see it now!

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we all got crowns…you need to calm down

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Finally found someone who respects me and loves me and will listen to @taylorswift with me 💕😭🙌🏼💘

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we all got crowns…you need to calm down

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