borderline-pizza

I have depression, anxiety, ADHD, and bpd. INFP. Slytherin. (she/her). pro self-dx. growth is key. No NTs 🚫

lamerialove:

Y'all ever think about how fucked up it is that your physical appearance dictates your entire life?! Cause like WTF???!

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bpdthots:

BPD POST #12

When someone asks you about yourself, and it takes you longer than usual to answer because you’re not even sure you know your own self.

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honestly

catsforbrokenhearts:

borderline-pizza:

Lately, I’ve been a lot happier. I’ve been better off. Something I see a lot on this site is people letting their mental illnesses consume them. I’m in no way blaming anyone for that since I know that it’s so so so difficult to not let it do that to you. but I slowly realized that if I could break the cycle, then maybe I could get better. I looked at my actions, started holding myself accountable for what I was doing and saying, and I tried to replace negative thoughts with positive ones. “I want to kill myself.” No. I don’t want to kill myself. I want to be happier. Well, what is preventing me from being happy? What can I do to change what is changeable? It’s so important to remember that in order for things to change, YOU have to be the one to put in that effort and make a change. Stop waiting for change to happen on its own, because it won’t. I noticed that when I started taking steps to make myself happier, it became easier and easier to get better. It was like a domino effect. I became so assertive with my mental health. I WILL get better, and I’m not letting anything stop me. Even if it takes a while, I’m going to make changes that will help me enjoy life even if it’s just a little bit more. Of course, I’m not 100% healed. I still have a lot of anxiety, I’m still self-conscious, I still find myself feeling the rollercoaster of bpd emotions. But I’ve learned how to manage a lot. My anxiety has gone down (partially due to changing my thoughts, partially due to Ativan). I’ve learned how to not have bpd rage episodes towards the people I love. I’ve learned how to be satisfied with talking to several people rather than relying on just one person. I’ve become so much more grateful for everything in my life and it’s honestly so refreshing to feel happier. So I encourage everyone who follows me to take a step back and realize that although change can be scary, it is the best thing I’ve ever done to myself. It can be so difficult at first, and there will be days where you feel like you’re backpedaling, but I promise you that in the long run, it gets easier and easier to get better if you just start. I love you guys and I hope you guys all one day feel recovered. 


*This post isn’t trying to bash on people who struggle with this. I know everyone’s situations are different and it’s likely you could be in a situation that you can’t change (e.g. feeling depressed due to parents who don’t accept your sexuality). I just wanted to share the mentality that got me to finally start getting better. I just hope that at least one person reads this and gets some motivation, or just sees that it is possible to recover and that it feels so good to. I have a lot to say abt this topic. If you ever need someone to talk to, or you need advice, feel free to PM me. 

In the last few years I’ve had the exact same experience as OP. It’s a long hard road to follow, but believe me, others have travelled down it before and so can you!

Okay, that may have been a bit corny, but it’s true. Determination is key. It may sound silly but one thing that helped me is that I pretended there was a biography written about be and how I was someone who never gave up. When things got (get) hard, I kept thinking “she always managed to push through” &c, like it was already said and done.

I still struggle at times. Anxiety is a big one for me. But I’m going to continue to work on it.

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frogmp3:

coolcatgroup:

The bean thief

greem beam

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opal-meadows:

does anybody else feel like they age in phases of niche interests rather than years

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comic-chameleon:

my-darling-boy:

my-darling-boy:

my-darling-boy:

I was having writers block and so I took a break and soon enough it was 3 in the morning and I had impulsively sewn together a tiny mouse you’re welcome

For those of you who asked, I have made a sewing tutorial on how to make your very own Peaches the Mouse!

I see people reblogging this with “to buy” but this pattern is free??? Someone even asked me “why don’t you charge money for it, it took you forever to put the document together” and I said “Not a lot of people have money and if they have some fabric scraps and a couple of buttons lying around they can make themselves a little mouse friend for free and that might make them happy and that makes me happier than receiving money???” Make yourself a liddol creacher! Heals the Soul!

@falldeere this seems like exactly the kind of thing you could use!!

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honestly

Lately, I’ve been a lot happier. I’ve been better off. Something I see a lot on this site is people letting their mental illnesses consume them. I’m in no way blaming anyone for that since I know that it’s so so so difficult to not let it do that to you. but I slowly realized that if I could break the cycle, then maybe I could get better. I looked at my actions, started holding myself accountable for what I was doing and saying, and I tried to replace negative thoughts with positive ones. “I want to kill myself.” No. I don’t want to kill myself. I want to be happier. Well, what is preventing me from being happy? What can I do to change what is changeable? It’s so important to remember that in order for things to change, YOU have to be the one to put in that effort and make a change. Stop waiting for change to happen on its own, because it won’t. I noticed that when I started taking steps to make myself happier, it became easier and easier to get better. It was like a domino effect. I became so assertive with my mental health. I WILL get better, and I’m not letting anything stop me. Even if it takes a while, I’m going to make changes that will help me enjoy life even if it’s just a little bit more. Of course, I’m not 100% healed. I still have a lot of anxiety, I’m still self-conscious, I still find myself feeling the rollercoaster of bpd emotions. But I’ve learned how to manage a lot. My anxiety has gone down (partially due to changing my thoughts, partially due to Ativan). I’ve learned how to not have bpd rage episodes towards the people I love. I’ve learned how to be satisfied with talking to several people rather than relying on just one person. I’ve become so much more grateful for everything in my life and it’s honestly so refreshing to feel happier. So I encourage everyone who follows me to take a step back and realize that although change can be scary, it is the best thing I’ve ever done to myself. It can be so difficult at first, and there will be days where you feel like you’re backpedaling, but I promise you that in the long run, it gets easier and easier to get better if you just start. I love you guys and I hope you guys all one day feel recovered. 


*This post isn’t trying to bash on people who struggle with this. I know everyone’s situations are different and it’s likely you could be in a situation that you can’t change (e.g. feeling depressed due to parents who don’t accept your sexuality). I just wanted to share the mentality that got me to finally start getting better. I just hope that at least one person reads this and gets some motivation, or just sees that it is possible to recover and that it feels so good to. I have a lot to say abt this topic. If you ever need someone to talk to, or you need advice, feel free to PM me. 

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borderline-pizza:

why do i have to be so… problematic

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sewercore:

*sits in the mud and eats a twig*

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infomercial:

happy mother’s day to miss honey from matilda

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mischiefmakermax:

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having-a-breakdown-again:

Me: absolutely hates being told what to do

Also me: panics if someone is not telling me what to do in very specific detail because if no one is telling me what to do I’m not being productive enough

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realestsuggestions:

kiss me and kiss me and kiss me and don’t stop

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pleasereturntoheaven:

if you need me I’ll be lifelessly floating face down in the nearest pond

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jennikeatts:

w0rldweaver:

soloveitchik:

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iammyfather:

nerdymouse:

lesbwian:

Shout out to all my straight sisters I’m so sorry 😞

Jesus, leave his ass.

We learn fast to be very kind and attentive, tho.

My mom, who got her degree in Marriage and Family Counseling when she was 60, says studies show that women will sometimes sometimes leave a long term relationship to live on their own for a while before seeking a new relationship, but men will almost never leave a long term relationship without having a new relationship either in progress or just beginning.  They don’t want to give up the caretaker they have without another one on deck or in the wings.

This is so sad

This isnt cute or quirky. This means hes a fucking hopeless user

Please date a man who actually acts like an adult.

Ok I lived with my ex for 2 years and he literally wouldn’t be able to get his own food if I wasn’t at home, I’d get home from work and he’d be angry at me for “making him starve”

My current partner has lived on his own for 8 years and the absolute most I have to help him with is maybe sending him $20 so he can make a bill payment on time

It made me realise for 2-4 years I wasn’t a girlfriend I was a fucking mother

Men who have been independent are capable of reverting if given the slightest excuse. When we married, my ex husband was 10 years older than me and had lived on his own for 8ish years. Yet (and I allowed this until I finally got fed up and took us to counseling) I did 80% of the cooking, because I was better at it. Same with the cleaning, shopping, social planning, etc.

After I left, in the first six months I got texts or calls asking me to please tell him:

  • The online banking password (dude, I left you, you should really change that)
  • Where I ordered his special-wecial organic underwear
  • Where the good cutting board was (my dad gave it to us at our wedding, genius, I took it with me along with the rest of the stuff from my family)
  • What brand butter we bought
  • What brand of local kielbasa we bought
  • Who his doctor was
  • What RMV office had the shortest lines
  • Where the old tax returns were (in the fucking box labeled tax returns)
  • The phone number for his best friend

I shit you not.

Then he had a heart attack (mild) and none of his family or friends were around to take him to the hospital. But instead of calling 911, he called me, who by then lived 45 minutes away. He lived 5 minutes from an EMS dispatch location. He called me, despite the fact that he didn’t believe me 8 months prior when I was feeling suicidal and I had to call a cab to go alone to check myself into the hospital for a 72-hour hold. I told him to call 911, hung up on him when he whined about “making a fuss”, called 911, called his siblings and then texted them “your brother is having a heart attack, I called 911 for him, come home,” and washed my hands of it.

Emotionally vacant men who won’t do household labor or emotional labor are not Nazis, but they aren’t good people, either, and you don’t have to put up with their shit.

Millennial women of Tumblr, please read this post.


And then please: make the decision for yourself to never stay with a man who expects you to be his mother and servant.

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stckwll:

and sometimes I don’t even notice

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pensivelyplayfulme:

A reminder in meme format

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bled:

It’s a miracle we ever met by Hallie Bateman

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