when someone says something that makes you angry, it’s so hard to let go. to refrain from responding. to relieve the tightening of your chest and the heat of your face. holding anger inside you physically and mentally hurts you, and it’s incredibly frustrating. and that is where forgiveness comes in, for the person whom has angered you, but most importantly, for you. so you can finally let go, breathe, move on, and heal. you don’t forget. you never do. but you forgive. and there’s a power in forgiveness that many of us overlook. when we forgive, we are no longer allowing that person to hold us down or control us with their words and actions. we relinquish that hold and take back that power. we take back our peace. in forgiving one, you attain peace, and in never forgetting, they will never have the power to take your peace again.
last year of high school : first week of school
the is the last first week of high school for me haha. weird but yeah. so far, the work load hasn’t been intense alhamdoulillah. for calculus, we’re covering limits, I know the basics from last year, so that’s good, but because its bc, the work is more challenging. for compsci, I absolutely love the class. being in this class has assured me that computer science is for me, if I hadn’t already been sure before, but with that I feel an intense fear of failure because this is what i want to do and if I fail to do well in the class, it’ll be deemed as a reflection of how I’ll do in the future. I’m just praying to do well inshallah and I will work for it. my my english class, I wanted ap lit, and may transfer since there is space now, but I also like my english class as it is now, so I have to make that decision soon. also, I have a lot of work to do in terms of extracurriculars, college apps, planning, etc. It all can get really stressful to be honest. this little update was short but sweet. hope you enjoyed it ❤
boba!! took both my math and compsci quiz which I stayed up to 2 am studying for and bought boba to cure my depression after taking those quizzes. for my math quiz, I know I made 2 stupid mistakes, one out of nervousness and the other because I didn’t really study it much, so yoop. and for compsci, I’ve never learned to code in java before and everybody else is pretty experienced so I have to work hard in it, but I actually understood/completed a lot more of what we were instructed to do than I thought I would when I first saw what we were supposed to do and has a panic attack. but then I told myself to calm down and not make the same mistake I did for the math quiz by freaking out the entire time, and to take time to pause, breathe, and really think/understand what I’m doing, rather than just scrambling around and confusing and stressing myself even more. today, I think I’m going to lay out a plan for my calc bc and compsci class in terms of what I need to do to do well inshallah, and also do my other work so yeah! also my computer science + entrepreneurship based club had its club rush today along with hosting a guest speaker who’s a compsci major and harvard and it went really well :) just gotta get into the grind of senior year even tho its probably going to be painful lol
for the european asks, scotland, bulgaria, slovakia, greece, and belgium!
scotland : do you prefer summer or winter?
oof, winter is extremely cold and I miss the snow so much, and summer is way too hot haha so I’d pick winter.
bulgaria : who was the last person you snapchatted?
I don’t have snapchat!
slovakia : how many languages can you speak?
I speak 2 languages fluently/natively(if that’s the right word lol) both pulaar and english.
belgium : favorite color?
don’t have a favorite per se, but it’s black haha
euro asks: bulgaria, bosnia, lithuania, spain!
bulgaria : who is the last person you snapchatted?
I don’t have snapchat haha
bosnia : last time you cried?
oof I don’t remember lol, but it wasn’t that long ago probably
lithuania : if you could go back in time to a moment in your life, when would you go back to?
I would probably go back to my elementary years in my old hometown. I miss it a lot along with the people I grew up with.
spain : do you take naps during the day?
sometimes yeah but then a 30 minute nap ends into a 2 hour one hehe
wales, france, poland, and montenegro for the euro asks. love your blog!
aww thank you so much!!
wales : how old are you?
france : ever drunk alcohol?
poland : do you have any pets?
no, I wish I did tho haha
montenegro : pizza or pasta?
oof I love both, man!
do you have any side blogs or is this blog your only on? by the way love your blog ! I'm always scrolling through it !!
hey guys!! a while back, probably a couple months ago, I started a weekly series and I discussed different life lessons I’ve learned and am still learning every day for a week. Some of you may remember, but a lot of you may not since a lot of awesome peeps[ followers but idk if I really like that word haha ]out here have been checking out my blog alhamdoulillah. I wanted to do another weekly series and decided to also let you guys choose what I should talk about! It can be anything and I’ll discuss it in a written post and express my thoughts! send me an ask or message of what topic you want me to include in this weekly series. I’ll probably tag you in the post when I post the topic you requested, but if you don’t want me to just say so or go anon!
byee salam to you all ❤❤
today we have a 3 day weekend bless and it’s the first day of the new muslim year//islamic calendar. I woke up late and still have a lot of work to do in terms of math and my other classes haha but I’m so glad we have monday off cuz I need some rest man.
I’m planning on starting another weekly series to post onto here inshallah, I’ve also been working developing some new stuff for websites so yeah!
more to come, this was just a quick, slightly boring update haha
so, I’ve been trying out something new. I’ve fallen into this slump of sadness of some sort once again and reflected upon it quite a bit in my notebook. in such slumps, and in general regarding my life, I noticed that I wasted time away just scrolling through social media, and other means of entertainment on my phone. my phone literally consumes my life and I want to live to be in the moment. To take a step back from the virtual world and enter the real one once again. that’s why I’m working on limiting my personal time on my phone and laptop and other devices. I’d like to limit it to 2 or 3 hours per day ideally, but I’m working on stopping up to 4 hours right now. I started this today and was not only more productive in my work, I took time to nap, fasted, and was more in the moment // conscious of every thing I was doing. When I took some personal time to be on my laptop or phone, I assessed what i was watching/doing and whether it was worth my time because I was accounting how much time I was spending and had a maximum restraint. I want to spend less time being consumed in a virtual world and more time in real life, more time being conscious and present and actually living. I’m going to try to keep this up for the rest of the week inshallah and update you guys on my progress and the process. not gonna lie, I’m pretty sure I’m going over the 4 hour max I set by going on here writing this post while watching jusuf, but hey, I cut back from about 8-12 hours to a bit over 4, so any progress I make, I’m grateful for alhamdoulillah. I want to not only reduce the time I spend on my phone and other devices, but to also be more conscious of how I spend my time on them to make room for better means of my life, to read more books, to watch more documentaries and films, to make more jewelry, to pursue my interest in sewing clothes, to paint more, to meditate and reflect, to write more, to be stronger in my faith, more aware and simply there in my prayers, to make more dua and dhikr, to hang out with my family and friends and actually be present, to spend more time cooking and trying out recipes, to walk around, to take bike rides, to live!
i just got done doing all my homework and studying java [sort of for the second part haha]. i’ve been continuing my goal of limiting myself to 4 hours of personal time on my phone, laptop, and other devices. so far, it’s been good. admittedly, it’s day 2 so I still have some way to go, but starting from the beginning of today to now [ 9:52pm ], I’ve only used my phone for 1 hour and 23 minutes. implementing this into my lifestyle has been so good for me alhamdoulilah. i think i’ve been able to stick to it more because of all my schoolwork, etc. but it’s in turn allowed me to be more productive with my schoolwork as I’m not watching youtube or scrolling through instagram at the same time. today this morning, during our drive to school and at school, sitting with my sister before the passing period bell rang for school to start, I was actually present. I engaged in more conversation with her, I took note of my surroundings as our car went by, I felt the wind and heard the sounds of cars and trains while waiting for school. little things, but nonetheless, the things we miss most in a sense. going to continue doing this for the rest of the week inshallah! i’m loving doing this, and hoping to integrate this into my lifestyle, where I’m actually living in the real world more than I am in virtual reality. I want to change the output of what I consume from my phone and devices to be positive where I gain some real benefit from it, or where it doesn’t completely drain our most vital and importance resource- time. hope you guys enjoy this post! byee :)
honestly, don’t how to start about detailing today. first of all, i’m pretty stressed about calc so rip may allah (swt) help me inshallah. pray for me, wish me well haha. second of all, we were waiting for the bus, and it’s supposed to come every 20 minutes, but ended up coming up an hour later. and I still have a lot to do for college apps, etc. and right now, as I’m writing this, I realize how much I’m complaining and not recognizing the blessings in these things. I have the opportunity to pursue an education, public bus transportation is an option for me over walking, I have the ability and opportunity to apply to college, etc. you know, it’s human nature to complain and find the bad in many things, but we need to work on finding the good as well, and the blessings that are apart of that so we develop a form of gratitude and don’t take it for granted. on to the next thing! I’ve been continuing my 4 hour limit on being on my phone and laptop, and i’m sad to say I went 10 minutes over it, and counting as i’m writing this post haha, but at least I’m calling myself out on it hehe. i think it’s because instead of studying and working today, I decided to give myself a break to both rest and sort of get overprocess my emotions. now that i’ve called myself out on it though, I think I’ll read this book my dad got me for my birthday after writing this post. hope you guys had a wonderful day! and if you had a sucky one, find something to be grateful for and work for the future! you got this. going to be posting more daily updates inshallah until probably this friday or sunday we’ll see :)
‘twas her first time eating from applebees and as can be said, 'twas quite delicious
I never ever buy burgers from popular restaurants, except for McDonalds haha. normally I get them from some local burger shops, but this was pretty good. definitely different from the burger’s I’ve had before! I feel like it was healthier, especially the meat itself- less oils, fat, grease, and manipulation.
it’s friday, and I think I’ll end the daily updates here for now, but who knows. school has been pretty stressful, I’m not going to lie. but I’m just going to try my best and put in my effort and stay focused inshallah with the help of allah(swt). I don’t know, there are so many things going on right now and I feel so overwhelmed that I can’t even begin to write them down in this post. having a bullet journal to organize and plan, amongst other things has helped me in reducing my stress by so much, though alhamdoulillah. I’ve been sticking to the 4 hour thing, but I still have to work on that as well inshallah so I’ll still be applying it for the rest of this week and so on. I have a lot of ideas regarding what to post and what I want to share, but it’s just a matter of making time for it, so will be updating about that probably around next week inshallah.