every time i see someone w really negative opinions abt their fave things im like…….u ok bud??? like are u genuinely alright??? how does someone spend so much time letting smth they enjoy bring them down so much
natsuo’s anger and resentment isn’t for himself.
it’s for fuyumi, who had to grow up too fast. it’s for touya, whose life was cut short. it’s for his shouta, who never had a real childhood. it’s for his mother, who never really got to live and enjoy life.
the anger you feel for someone else will always burn brighter and longer than the anger you feel for yourself. he doesn’t care about himself. he doesn’t care what his father did ( or didn’t do ) to him. it’s about what happened to his mother and siblings. he never gave a thought to himself. even if everyone else forgives endeavor, natsuo isn’t sure he can. he saw the aftermath of everything and it still burns in his chest.
they don’t have to be angry anymore, he respects the choices his family makes. but he still hears touya telling him about his training. he still dreams of his mom’s tears and of fuyumi’s struggle of trying to carry the household on her little shoulders. he still has nightmares of shouta crying and be unable to reach his little brother and help.
he has so many emotions inside and he doesn’t know where to start or even how to go about sorting them out.
Everyone had been so cool this fight!! Adaine’s Big Hand throws and counterspells!! Gorgug tanking like there’s no tomorrow between his friends and baddies!! Fabian’s sheet dance and blade work, becoming his own man!! Kristen’s “I’ve been praying for you” and that spell!! Riz shooting Daybreak //again//, and literally being shot out a cannon!! Fig shredding as a new archdevil with her own Imp, telling Vraz(?) to eat her ass!! All the NPC’s being cool as fuck!! I’m!!